Dear God

God, I want to stop for a while.

I want to put my pen down and raise my hands in worship. I want to stop thinking that I can write a single word on my own. That I can express a message without Your wisdom. That I can create and breathe without Your mercy.

Maybe I could live this life pretending I don’t need a savior but it would be pointless, like wandering meaninglessly in a never-ending black hole, for I am undoubtedly nothing apart from Your love and salvation.

All that I have, I have because of You. All the good that I am is shaped by Your very hands.

God, you know how I get so discouraged sometimes because, for the longest time, I’ve been pinning my fulfillment on the things that will only leave me empty. I struggle with my unworthiness, selfishness, and pride because I’ve been more focused on the world than Your Word.

I want to abandon the part of me that craves for the applause of this world. I want to turn down my self-belief so I can turn up Your faithfulness.

I want to forget my worries and remember Your power. I want to put Your kingdom first, before myself and my personal desires. I want to embrace this joy that I found in You. I want to stay by your side, Dear God.

I want to build my confidence in You and You alone. I want to chase the things that will last. I want to do the things that will bring honor to You, not because I am righteous but because You are. I am not in the least qualified but my sufficiency is from You, God.

Despite my unholiness, despite my sins and imperfections, You still look at me with Love. You look at me from the Cross with a Love that can’t compare. I lift all my eternal praises to You.

I want to pick up my pen again and let Your hands carve my words. I want to praise You and mean it with all my heart. I want to scribble words that are genuinely from my soul, not shallow poems nor empty sentences. I want to proclaim Your name on every canvas. I want to write about Your love and redemption in big, bold letters. Because there’s nothing worth sharing more than something that great.

I want to be Your daughter eternally, God. It is more than I could ever ask.

More than I deserve. And more than any label the world could put on me. I want my life to be a book of Your goodness, Your grace, and forgiveness. I want to love You with all my soul and all my strength.

I want to live for Your glory, Dear God. I want to live for YOU, and not for the world. Because I am nothing, absolutely nothing apart from You.

With love,

Being.imelda❤️

To friends and Family who stand by us in 2019

Thank you for loving us when we weren’t so lovable. Thank you for being patient with us as we grow, as we heal, as we try to put our pieces back together and mend what we broke in ourselves or what people broke in us. Thank you for making the difficult times this year so much easier to handle, so much easier to accept and so much easier to get through. Thank you for letting us be vulnerable and honest without judging us. Thank you for reassuring us that you’ll always be there when we need you and that we’ll always have another family to depend on when times get rough.

Thank you for being the light in our darkest days because that’s what we remember when we look back on the most difficult days of the year, we remember you, the people we’re grateful for, the people who took time out of their busy lives to be there for us, the people who chose to stick around or go the extra mile even though they had other priorities. Thank you for reminding us that if things go wrong, we still have the one thing that’s right; your love. Thank you for showing us that true friendship will always stand the test of time and that you’ll always show up for us when we need you.

Thank you for being the reason we leave this year with good memories and fun times and laughter. Thank you for always making our years memorable because you were in them, because when we look back, we will remember the trips we took together, the people we met, the memories we made, the new beginnings we shared and all the wonderful occasions we celebrated. Thank you for celebrating with us our successes, our milestones, our birthdays and our achievements. Thank you for supporting us along the way because without you, we wouldn’t be where we are. Without you, the good times would be tasteless.

Thank you for all the times you stopped this year from breaking us whether by your support or your presence or your advice. Thank you for looking out for us and letting us know that we have people to count on, people we can trust, people who can speak on our behalf when our own voices fail us. Thank you for helping us survive yet another year but most of all, thank you for being our friends all those past years and all the years to come because knowing you’re there, knowing you’re in our lives makes us start every new year feeling safe that no matter what happens, you’ll be there helping us get by. Thank you for being our ‘hell yes’in a world of ‘maybes.’

 

LoveXLight

Imelda